We were both broke as fuuuuu. Lol. It should not be a big deal, no, and we didn’t want it to be. But it still affected us, so the day was up and down with emotions.
First he went to meet me to drop off my stuff at mom’s house. Then we lost track of time and realized that we had to hurry to catch our movie, so we rushed to get some cheaper food at Shoppers (haha) then took the bus. I forgot what was said exactly, but something about what we talked about made him quiet because he can’t afford what we both wanna do. It was cute. But then he got really pessimistic about stuff and started saying stuff like he doesn’t wanna watch the movie anymore if we’re late for like 20 minutes. In my head, first off, we’re defs NOT gonna be late for 20 mins, and second, why are you being like this? So that pissed me off. And until we went to the theatres, he saw some ex coworkers and chatted with them for a bit. That pissed me off too cause he was the one saying we were late, so I just went in and paid for both of us (it hurt lol). In the beginning of the movie we were still pretty cold to each other and I couldn’t concentrate on what I was watching cause all I was thinking about was I want us to be okay already cause it’s a special day. So I sucked in my pride and forgave him and told him it’s okay.
We didn’t know where to go after cause we were broke, I really wanted Bubble Queen but he didn’t have cash (which made him sad again). So it was either Starbucks or Timmies cause we weren’t really hungry anyways. We decided to go Timmies cause it was closer to an errand that he had to do after like, 30 minutes (again, he was sad about that too). We went there and didn’t even get the chance to have “the talk” when you’re finally alone and just eating cause we bumped into a friend.. and she stayed with us the whole time even after letting her know it’s our 7th month.
After that he brought me all the way home to Vancouver, even walked with me. He doesn’t really do that for me but I guess cause it was our 7th so he did. And I’ll admit, I feel like the celebration wasn’t as felt like the ones that we had before. I hope it’s just cause we’re broke and that’s it. Ahhhhh money. But overall, it was good, we FaceTimed at night and that always completes my day no matter what anyways.
I love you f****** my puppie. Haha :)
May 22, 2012 <3
Everyone knows pain, but we are not meant to carry it forever.
This poem is so beautiful, I am more than proud to be a part of this project. I will never forget how this performance felt and how it brought out so much emotions from everyone around me.
Please watch. You won’t regret it.
Half a yearrr <3
First off, I totally didn’t expect anything extravagant to happen. I knew for a fact that we were both broke.. Therefore I had no gift :( But this guy just did everything I could have asked for.
He picked me up and he already surprised me with tons of chocolate covered strawberries that I’ve been dying to try from Godiva. When we parked by Steveston, he asked me if I could get his N sign from his trunk. I was like,sure okay lol. I saw an Aldo paper bag in his trunk and thought it was just a random bag used by his family, then while I was trying to find his sign he suddenly started laughing. I was wondering why then I looked inside the trunk again, inside the Aldo paper bag, then I saw my other gift. The bag that I’ve been wanting for so so so long, I was just not able to afford it. I almost melted.. HE SHOULDN’T HAVEEEEE. But I love it <3 lol. Officially one of the greatest surprises ever done to me, ever. Too funny that I didn’t even realize it at first too. After that we ate the chocolates at Garry Point Park, by the sea. It was cold so we only stayed for a few minutes. The chocolates were sooooo good, I wasn’t wrong about my expectations. We then went downtown to waste time before the movie, going around Urban Outfitters again. We watched The Lucky One, which was so nice. I cried, just one time though! Haha. He brought me for dinner at Earl’s after (just beside the theatre) which I totally guessed early in the day, but he was just too embarrassed to say I was right. I almost ruined the night again by being distracted by something.. But I tried to stop it cause he was getting disappointed again. It ended up nicely though, walking at back from Vancouver, taking transit, and all the way home :)
I love you my booboo. Hehe. Happy 6th / half a year!
April 22, 2012 <3
His birthday in one picture :’)
It started out bad, cake order was messed up, though I was looking forward to the surprise so I didn’t really bother stressing over about it the whole day. Then I went to his house all excited about the surprise as his sister, Pat, Bianca, and Victor help me on what should I do when he arrives.. 1, 2, 3 hours passed by.. I was getting frustrated. I didn’t mind waiting cause obviously he didn’t know that I was there. But we had plans to celebrate his birthday together, just us. We were texting and he said he wasn’t in control of how late the bus came and he was trying his best.. and I found myself in this hard position again on how to control my frustration so that I wouldn’t make him upset, especially on his birthday. But what do I do? He let me down.. I didn’t even feel like surprising him anymore so when he came he just found me crying on his bed with my gift beside me. I was selfish.. I kept thinking I shouldn’t be sad, cause he’s sad now, I ruined his day. I ruined his birthday.
We tried forgetting it over dinner with the whole group.. But it was still kinda iffy. I’d tear up once in a while cause it’ll just pop out in the back of head. It was either “Why didn’t he even think about how I’ll feel when we planned on celebrating his birthday just us like weeks ago” or “It’s HIS birthday. I should stop being selfish and I should be happy cause that will make him happy”. The latter was definitely easier said than done. When we all went back to Richmond, there were only 2 hours left of his birthday. He insisted of going to a park or something for us to talk. So we did.. it felt like tears weren’t gonna stop and I was the worst girlfriend in the world. I wished that I could turn back time so bad.. then all this wouldn’t have happened and the surprise would’ve worked and everything would’ve been perfect for him.
I don’t know how it happened, we just talked it through.. inside my head I thought that asking him to dance with me should make everything better. Just like how he did when he asked me to be his girlfriend. So after walking around a bit trying to look for a rooftop (cause he wanted to), we just returned to the parking lot. I forced him to sit down, and played the song we danced to before. Weirdly when I started playing the song, 3 people from different places showed up when no one was even passing by when we were just talking.. So it was kinda awkward. But I paused and played it again.. He was so surprised too cause he told me he wanted to ask me as well, that’s why he wanted to go to a rooftop. But I said it’s his birthday, I should be the one. So we danced right there at the Richmond Centre parking lot, and the last few bits of our tears came out, but that time, we were both happy.
We ended dancing at around 11:45.. So we waited and talked until it 11:59, then we kissed so it’s official, I’m the last one he spent his birthday with haha. And we kissed at 12:00 again for a new day :)
Until now as I’m writing this, it’s still so fresh that I’m still crying.. Regrets are still inside me, I wish this I wish that. Him telling me that he’s never had someone surprise him before hurt me the most.. I feel like I ruined everything too. But I guess I just have to think that there’s always next time. And there’s always next year for his next birthday.
The important thing is, as always, we become okay before the day ends.
Happy 20th my puppie :) I love you. No matter what.
